long week

This week has felt ridiculously long. Brooke left for Florida to see her family on Tuesday. My hope was to go with her especially since she has plans to tell them we are going to start a family. What I am finding the most difficult is actually making sure the dogs have enough attention. For quite some time our two dogs, Codi and Charlie, have been our children. Especially Charlie because he is small enough to fit in our laps. Brooke likes to hold him on his back and cradle him like a baby. I have an amazing crazy work schedule. So, fo the first day I was gone I had to leave work in the middle of the day to go home and take them for a walk. They usually go to daycare every Monday, which they love and makes them tired for a few days after. I thought about taking them for another day this week, but my work hours are later than how late they are open and also we are trying to cut back on extra expenses and save up for all we need to do to make our baby. So, miraculously my daycare was in need of a couple hundred old tennis balls. They offered a trade for 2 half days for the balls. So, yesterday and today they have half days of daycare. I still have to leave work to go pick them up from daycare, but at least they are not just lying around at home all day and only going out for the short amount of time I am able to go home.

When we have this baby we are going through this whole process to make, we don’t want to put him or her or whatever in daycare. Brooke wants to be that stay at home mom as much as possible. She also knows and needs to work at least part-time. Right now we are hoping she will be able to find a job, hopefully full-time, where she can work from home. That would make our lives so easy. This whole week is just making me think of all the juggling we are going to have to do when baby comes along. I will be the sole bread-winner meaning I will actually have to work more. We are hoping for my mom to work less not only so I can work more, but so she can also babysit too. So, will I be running back and forth in the middle of my days like this? Will I be working so much I won’t even get to spend much time with Brooke and our child? All I want is a healthy baby a happy Brooke and to take care of them both. Otherwise known as a huge weight on my shoulders. But nothing I am not willing to go through for a family.